A Tear In The Soul

Description

I don't believe it's possible to hurt another person without hurting oneself, an invisible hurt, a tear in the soul that allows the essence of one's humanity to leak out, like bleeding from a cut. Awareness of the loss might come infrequently or only in the dead of night or when staring at the bottom of a beer glass. But it almost always comes. A collective group can't hurt another collective group either without hurting itself. And I belong to a collective group that has hurt. A foreigner's criticism provides the impetus for Amanda Webster to embark on a long-intended search for two former school friends - Aboriginal kids from the Kurrawang Mission near where she grew up in Kalgoorlie. As a child, Webster supposed Mission kids were well-cared for orphans, however growing awareness forced her to think otherwise. Over the years her questions accumulated: were her friends members of the Stolen Generations? What was life at Kurrawang really like? What are her responsibilities as a non-Indigenous Australian whose family's privilege was built on stolen land? For an institution that existed for over two decades, Webster finds that Kurrawang was strangely undocumented. Nor can she find any trace of her former friends, including a young Aboriginal girl who went on a beach holiday with Amanda's family. Then in 2012, Webster meets Gregory Ugle, an older brother of her former friend Tony. After a four-decade absence, Webster returns to her hometown with Ugle to reconnect with her former friends, and to piece together Kurrawang's story through oral histories and local newspaper archives. Over several trips, a sometimes uneasy tension emerges with Ugle as both he and Webster inch towards a fragile reconciliation. 'The heartfelt story of a woman's fierce determination to bear witness to the wrongs inflicted upon her childhood friends, purely because of their skin colour. With searingly honest self-reflection, Webster pieces together stories of families and lives brutally ripped apart.' - Leah Kaminsky

Author description

Amanda Webster was born in Kalgoorlie, where her father and his father before him were doctors. She attended school with Aboriginal children from the local mission, Kurrawang. After an early career in medicine, Webster earned an MFA in creative writing and has published essays in several literary journals. Her first book was The Boy Who Loved Apples. She now lives in Sydney.